Progress Update

I’ve started writing regularly again.

I’ve started writing regularly again.

I think that should be enough of a progress update in and of itself, but in the spirit of getting back to my old habits, I composed, edited, and posted a poem on my website here.  That really got me missing creativity.  Not guilting myself about how I should be writing but aren’t, but missing the creative process.

I’ve started writing in the mornings.  Since then, I entered two hand-written stories into Scrivener and started to create a Patreon.  I’m also thinking about launching a Facebook writer page so that I don’t unnecessarily spam friends with writing stuff.  I counted my stories for the Patreon short story arc and I’m up to eight.

Editing will begin next week.  Once I have a few of these good to go, I’ll launch my Patreon and have myself a project.  Finally.  But it will be out of excitement rather than obligation, and that’s the best feeling in the world.

A Solution to a Problem

I’ve started getting up at 7 a.m. and since I leave for work at 8:20 a.m. that gives me an hour, more or less, to do writing at my computer in the mornings.

Writing in my notebook is never a problem.  The notebook is always there, waiting for me to enjoy the delightful feeling of a good pen on smooth paper, the joy of creating stories.  The problem has been moving things from the notebook into Scrivener.  I spend all day at work on a computer, writing, so when I come home the last thing I want to do is have more screen time.  This was less of a problem in my previous job because my computer time wasn’t so intense.

But now it’s a problem.  So I need a solution.  This is the one I’ve come up with.  I thought that getting up earlier would be onerous, but with the nighttime routine and sleep schedule my therapist and I have worked out, it’s actually very doable.  Even if I now get ready for bed at 10 p.m. like some kind of… adult… or… something.

I’m going to start doing progress updates again.  I think I will move those to either Saturday or Sunday.  Friday is a good day to balance out with a Monday weekly update, but since I have axed that in favor of “substantive” updates whenever I want or don’t want, I can do my progress updates on whatever day I want (woo!) and I tend to have more time on Saturday or Sunday mornings because I’m lucky to sleep in until 8 a.m. and if I’m doing Things they don’t usually start until later.

I guess what I’m saying is “hiatus over!”

So Irresponsible

Go to college, they said
(to a kid from the trailer park)
You have scholarships, they said
(to a kid from the trailer park)
You can afford it, they said
(to a kid from the trailer park)
Loans will cover the rest
It’s only 20%.

There are no jobs, they said
(to a kid with student loans)
Go back to school, they said
(to a kid with student loans)
You will have scholarships, they said
(to a kid with student loans)
You’ll be able to afford it
It’s only 20%.

We want you in public service, they said
(to a kid with expensive degrees)
You can afford it, they said
(to a kid with expensive degrees)
We won’t ask for more than you can pay, they said
(to a kid with expensive degrees)
We’ll forgive the rest
Up to 100%.

So irresponsible!  So foolish!
Went to schools you couldn’t afford!
Took a job that didn’t pay!
This is your own fault!
You should have made better choices.

If A Tree Falls In A Forest…

If you’re a writer but you’re not writing now (or updating your writing blog, for that matter) are you still a writer?

I’m pretty sure that the answer is yes.

I’m no longer as fatalistic about this break as I was a few weeks ago. I’m definitely still a writer. Even though I’m not writing fiction or updating my writing blog, I’m still reading and journaling and updating my queer blog. And I haven’t given up writing for good.

I’m just recharging the battery, renewing the well, whatever the proper term is for recovering from rejection fatigue. I still love writing and creating stories.

But if I do it, I’m going to have to market it, because that’s just how I am. And I really don’t care for more rejection right now. So here I am: a writer who isn’t writing, just waiting for the energy to come back. It will be back, sooner or later. It always comes back.