There comes a time in everything that I’m writing where I hit the middle and I have to make myself keep slogging forward. It doesn’t seem to matter whether it’s a short story or something longer. It usually hits about 1/3 of the way in.
I’ve tried to analyze what it is. I’ve heard writers, usually on panels or podcasts, explain that it’s because the newness has worn off and the ending is very far away. I don’t think that’s my problem. The middle isn’t a boredom problem for me. The middle is where the meat of the story happens, and even though I write from an outline, the characters still do things that surprise me. And it’s not a shiny new thing problem. Shiny new things crop up, and I either modify the idea and throw it in my outline, or I write it down and save it for later.
My wall usually arrives in the form of self doubt. I catch myself thinking, what if this actually isn’t as cool as I think it is? What if I’m wasting my time when I could be writing something better? What if the ending sucks? What if I hate it? So I think my problem is a self-consciousness problem.
I’m not going to lie, there are a couple things that I’ve written that are completely cringeworthy. I hold on to them in the hopes that, some day, I’ll be reading through my collection of works in progress, lightning will strike, and I’ll have the answer that solves all of the story’s problems. For some of my things, especially my earliest things, I think they are probably just too bad to be saved. But I can’t bring myself to throw them out.
Even considering the cringeworthy stories, that’s only some of my writing. So when the story has stopped dragging me along, and it’s my turn to drag it along, I have to remind myself that the rest of my writing is actually pretty cool and enjoyable to read and why do I even care anyway because I’m writing this for myself. It usually works. Besides, if I stopped 1/3 of the way through every time I felt that way, I wouldn’t finish anything.
Finished up chapter 14 this morning. When I was writing it, it felt like a little bit of a longer one because I was feeling my way through. But because I was mostly hand-writing it on lunches at work, that could just be my perception. I still have to type it up, but it’s a lot easier to type up something you’ve already written than it is to create something from scratch.
I’ve decided to make my third post on punctuation. I must really want to turn off anyone stumbling on this site by accident.
I’m not always perfect at grammar, but it’s definitely something I notice. When I’m workshopping or alpha reading someone else’s work, improperly used punctuation really jumps out at me. I’ve heard several other authors who are just getting started say that they just don’t care about grammar.
I don’t understand it. Maybe it’s because one of the most helpful classes I took as an undergrad was Grammar of Modern English, where we basically just diagrammed sentences for a semester. Maybe it’s because my day job requires me to write pretty technical stuff, and my boss is a real stickler about grammar, punctuation, and word choice. Or maybe it’s because I don’t want to look foolish by improperly using dashes, now that I know there are people that are going to judge me if I just randomly pick between en-dashes and em-dashes or some dashing style totally of my own invention.
When I pick up a new book and the first chapter is so full of semicolons that I imagine the author had a bag of the things and just dumped it out on the page? I have to put the book down. Even when the semicolons are used properly, it’s such a strong punctuation signal that I start to feel like I’m being punched in the face with “these sentences are really, really related!” over and over again.
And if the punctuation is not used properly? Forget about it. There comes a point when bad punctuation distracts me so much that there is really no point in even trying to finish the story. If this is how I feel, I can only imagine how an editor is going to feel. Do you really want anyone who is going to maybe hopefully pretty-please going to want to buy this story to be so distracted by randomly sprinkled semicolons that they put the story down?
Punctuation is a very important tool to impart a message. And as a writer, language is my most important tool. It affects a message almost as much as word choice does. And I really don’t understand authors who don’t want to learn more about how to use language.
I have a little bit of time this morning so I thought I would share that I’ve finished chapter 13 and am on to chapter 14. The transition to chapter 14 was a little rough. There was a lot of information that I wanted to impart after chapter 13… but I decided to do a short time jump. The information was really interesting to me about the minute details of this and that, but I’m not sure it would be interesting to read. I suspect no one will miss it.
Meanwhile, I’ve decided my working title for the novel is “The Plague.” This won’t be the title. It’s not really about a plague. The plague is the setting. But for now I really have to call it something.
So this is my new website. I thought I’d set out what I’m hoping to do here, so that I stay focused and on topic. And when I write down rules, I’m a lot more likely to follow them. Maybe that’s just my lawyer brain.
The goal is to post frequent updates. What do I mean by frequent? I like blogs best when they update at least once a week. I’d like to shoot for twice a week. I don’t make any promises about length. In fact, I intend to limit myself to devoting no more than 15 minutes to a single post. The goal is for the blog to keep me motivated and excited about writing, not for it to take over my life and use up all of my useful writing time.
My life is pretty jam packed with work and family and volunteering and writing and gaming. So I’ve been asking myself, why add a blog on top of that? Here’s my answer in a simple syllogism: Thinking about the process of writing keeps me motivated to write; writing about things makes me think about them; therefore, writing about my process of writing will keep me motivated to continue writing.
Besides, I like the idea of accountability, even if I’m only accountable to myself (and my writing group). I’ll post later about how valuable my writing group has been to me.
So here’s where I’m at with writing. I have a couple completed short stories and a few in various states of not-yet-ready-to-sell. I’ve put those in my Works in Progress page. I’m also about half way through chapter 13 on my novel. I’ve almost hit my 15 minutes and I’m sure to spend more time writing about that later… a lot more time… so I’ll leave it at that.