Recharging

What I have recently discovered about working on a single writing project for a long period is that it’s really difficult to just jump right in to a new project.  I even have something that I briefly worked on for a new writing group that is already started.  I’m having three major problems right now: 1) letting the plague novel go, 2) finding the motivation to do something new, and 3) the “shoulds.”

First, letting the plague novel go is the most major of the major problems.  My natural inclination is to finish the project that I started.  While I have practiced multitasking, which is necessary in my day job, it’s just not the way I’m wired.  I know that getting the plague novel out of my head before I pick it back up will be good for me.  Stephen King said so, and I practiced it with short stories and found it to be true.  Coming back to something with fresh eyes just helps.  That doesn’t make it easy to tell my brain to stop making improvements as I get feedback on, though.

Second, I pushed really hard on my second revision (the putting the hand-written revisions in the computer revision), and the result is burn out.  I don’t want to write.  Compounded with only wanting to write on the plague novel, this is a serious issue.

And third, none of the things that I “should” do are appealing. I should fix up some of my old short stories and try to sell them again now that I have more practice, I should work on the story that I wrote the first chapter of and do important things like outline it and scrap the first chapter because it’s cool but it sets the wrong tone for the rest of the story, I should list some other ideas and find one that appeals to me, etc. etc.  I know what I should do. I just don’t want to do it.

Leaving me in a quandary.  In know that the solution is to just sit down and write.  But I don’t want to.  It’s writers’ block to the Nth degree.  But if I can’t get through this, I can’t be a writer.